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... in a space where I am unknown.
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- Steve Earle - Copperhead Road
- Bebo Norman - Between The Dreaming and th Coming True
- Shawn Mullins - Live at the Variety Playhouse
- Drive By Truckers - The Dirty South
- Nanci Griffith - Late Night Grande Hotel
- Counting Crows - Saturday Nights, Sunday Mornings
- Garth Brooks - Greatest Hits
- Sugarland - Enjoy The Ride
- Tim McGraw - Live Like You Were Dying
- Casting Crowns - Lifesong
- Counting Crows - Recovering the Satellites
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