I go for assessment on Tuesday, admission on Thursday.
Anorexia is a thief like no other.
It steals my holiday. My choices. My words. My mind. My relationships. My chances. My sleep. My health. My bones.
And that's not even the half of it.
I'm numb and very, very tired.
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Oh sweetie. Pleas, please take care of yourself! I think of you often and really care about you.
ReplyDeleteHi Love - oh my, well.......recovery is not an exact science. It takes what it takes. The goal is that there are longer periods of remission and shorter periods of relapse. I am praying for you as you face this next go-round.
ReplyDeleteDon't give up?
Love to you
Gail
peace.....
So sorry to hear this. I haven't checked in for awhile, and I wish the news were better. But you have a strong spirit. I am confident you will find a way to recover your body weight. My thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteWS, I think of you all the time. I can't come back here often, it's too triggering for me. And you know, I think it's too triggering for you too. I'm glad you have this blog, I think it's good for you in many ways, and good for your web friends. But it's my really strong sense that it's bad for you in some really important ways. Who knows - this might be just my own issues about me at work here. I certainly believe that might be the case. But I can't shake the sense that blogging your experience has deepened it, accentuated it, beyond what it might otherwise be. This comes from my growing interest in the emotional motivations for and repercussions of blogging. It's not your blog per se. But you, dear WS, someone I identified so quickly with, I wonder if this whole experience is better soothed and healed if not dispersed to a broad audience, but kept - and addressed - internally, of course with your doctors, and your safe haven in the woods. Yeah, I might be talking mostly to myself. But I don't want you to wither away. If you cut off this public act of it, might it help you?
ReplyDeleteMaybe you do or don't know that I say this out of love, or whatever identification it is that I feel with you.
Faithy