Sunday, 12 December 2010

Safety in Numbers

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  1. That's a great, totally impersonal photo. What do you mean by it? Even its tags are vague. Weight is the big issue right now? That's what you're thinking about? You didn't have anything else to post but wanted to post something? I doubt that, think you mean to say something. But I, at least, don't get it. You have to say something specific, or make some connection to the image (if you want us [me, but maybe others too] to get it). Is your waist 22 inches? Wow. I'm jealous. I'm 25 or something. I admit feeling a bit competitive. I know that’s not good, not the point. Just can’t help it. Is that what you mean? Do you want recognition that you are incredibly tiny? You really are. Is this picture for us, or for you?

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  2. There is safety in numbers but there is also so much danger in numbers. It's easier to focus on the numbers instead of the pain in your heart. I so get that. The danger is measuring your self worth by those numbers. You are so much more than those numbers and you deserve so much more than zero.

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  3. I';m sorry, WS. Campbell B. is right, she gets it I think and helps me see maybe what you meant. As you must sense, I'm frustrated that you're in this place. I just want you to be ok. But I also want to be here for you however you are; sorry to put my anxieties ahead of that sometimes.

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  4. HELLO LOVE-

    Numbers? Oh they are so imprisoning, paralyzing and so intentional. Please, free yourself of such binds. I understand your attachment - it measures you in your mind - but it is not a measure of who you are. Please know that.
    Love to you
    Gail
    peace and hope.....

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  5. Wishing you a safe place to be right now.

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  6. Dear readers,

    I've avoided posting responses today because I want to feel calm when I write.

    In all honesty, I have been a bit upset about comments.
    It seems my intentions here are being misunderstood and although I feel some degree of resentment at having to justify my choice of self expression, in my own little corner of the web, I suppose that is what I will do. This though, will have to wait until I feel able to do so without sounding as angry as a part of me has felt today.

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  7. I don't think you need to justify your self expression at all or share anything you don't want to. This is your blog. It's here for you, not for anyone else. Having said that, I apologize if I misunderstood. Either way, I am sorry you're hurting.

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  8. HI AGAIN-

    I agree with Campbell. This is your blog to use as you see fit, so say or not to say whatever you choose. If I have offended you in anyway, I am SO sorry. :-(

    Love to you always
    Gail
    peace and hope for us all

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  9. nuts and bolts and numbers. nuts and bolts and numbers. They defined me. They dictated how my day went...how I felt...how I treated myself....nuts and bolts and numbers. Stay strong okay.

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  10. I don't have too many words today or really ever. I just want to let you know that I am always thinking of you.

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  11. I found my way here again its been a long time and I see your hurting so much - my heart goes out to you WS.I get it believe me I do the numbers they represent safety, control, security and achievement. The numbers are the figure in every aspect of life.. striving to be that lower number... desperately wanting to be 0 to be nothing to be *dead* as thats what the 0 number represents. I really do get it but also the numbers arent safe they represent lack of control and danger ... the numbers once they strike a certain set must mean that work as a teacher is impossible, life is shattered, no longer safe, doctors take over, its all becomes so unsafe ... everyone .. everything a threat. The numbers control you and your family I hear that and I hear the desperation..Iwonder how it felt for you to watch the numbers control your sister and to kill of the sister you knew..I hear often you feel helpless you couldnt help so you joined her ?the numbers now control you both and thats such a scary thing.It sounds like hell for you utter hell and the numbers make you feel safe the lower the number the safer you feel.Its your space dear WS and I hear how upset you are ... sending you love and support xxx

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