Friday, 5 October 2012

I'm Still Here...

... Still in the hospital.
... Still battling.
...Still wanting recovery
Still finding communication very, very difficult.

I am currently weighing in at 38.8kgs and my BMI is now above 15.
Although I am finding weight restoration almost unbearable, I am finding that eating the food itself is less frightening.
I even enjoy it.

I want to begin writing about the recovery process and I want to use my experiences to benefit others in some way and yet, I still have so, so far to go.

Tomorrow I get to go home for one night after twelve long weeks... Or is that thirteen?

I think it will feel like heaven, and yet, I am scared I'm gonna mess it up.

If you're still reading here, 

you are more faithful than I am deserving, and show more loyalty than this blog warrants!


  1. HELLO LOVE - I am so glad and relieved to "see" you again. And you are truly deserving of my wonder, concern.,love and hope and prayers. I hope your time at home was wonderful and I applaud your commitment to wellness. I believe in you.
    Love Gail

  2. I hope that you enjoy being home! :) You'll do okay, it will take willpower and support though:)

  3. I am happy that you are feeling some progress in your situation, and I'm very happy that you are considering writing about it. A timid suggestion - in addition to "writing about the recovery process", you might want to consider also writing about your feelings, attitude and justifications (both to self as well as to friends and associates) in the years leading up to the recovery process.
    All offers made previously still stand, however I will be leaving for Europe in a week and wont return until mid-November. And for the record, you don't get to decide what you deserve - that is left to others to work through.
    Best wishes, Bob

  4. It's wonderful that you were able to go home. I hope everything went well for you. I am so glad that you are still writing. You absolutely deserve so much. You are a person of worth. A person that God loves infinitely.
    I wish you well.