Careful crimson smile
Hiding sepia sadness
Hot tears streak my soul
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
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Hold on. I am told the sadness will someday be better.
ReplyDeleteHi
ReplyDeleteTears are cleansing - and tears of the soul are life-changing. I am here, so is Annie -
Love to you
Gail
peace................
Sending prayers,
ReplyDeleteandrea
((((hugs))))
ReplyDeleteI wish I could make it better. I want to make it better for you...to take away the pain. Praying for you. Please safe safe ok. Sarah
ReplyDeleteThank you all so much.
ReplyDeleteThank you for being alongside without judging.
Thank you for not blaming.
Thank you for still being here.
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